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Tuesday, 15 July 2008

I'm afraid of liking a pervert.

So there's this guy I kind of always liked. Well, I was attracted to him.. alot!, but now I officially like him. He's only a few months younger than me, he likes hip-hop (he thinks he's gangster, its cute ) and he's so funny. But here's the catch: he is a TOTAL perv!

He knows practically every sexual reference, he's always ready to do something, he screamed really loud one time he seriously wanted pussy, I THINK he's even looked up porn before, he talks about hot girls alot, and he even sat on top of me one time and when I wasn't paying attention he was fooling around with his friends and was putting his hands all around my unmentionable spots. Yeah. But I still like him.

But the thing I'm afraid of is if he'll use me when if he finds out I like him or we go out or something. Since no girls like him because of his perviness, I'm afraid he'll use me for the sake of having a girlfriend or "getting some", and I am really not ready to something like that, let alone make-out with him...cause the things I like about him are his sense of humor and his cute face and funny voice and stuff. But I'm not sure that he would like me for who I am, just my body. I'm really scared.

I need your advice. Please help!
Just Kidding

Just kidding, that didn't work.
Pictures Of My Loneliness

Because of my pathetic loneliness, pictures of people kissing make me want to go cry in the corner of my room. So, since I have nothing else to blog about...here goes!:

<a href="http://s296.photobucket.com/albums/mm180/kayletspartay22/?action=view&current=kiss-5.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i296.photobucket.com/albums/mm180/kayletspartay22/kiss-5.jpg" border="0" alt="love"></a>
<a href="http://s317.photobucket.com/albums/mm383/HeartTJP/?action=view&current=love.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i317.photobucket.com/albums/mm383/HeartTJP/love.jpg" border="0" alt="Kiss"></a>

<a href="http://s351.photobucket.com/albums/q467/Alienman2142/?action=view&current=kiss-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i351.photobucket.com/albums/q467/Alienman2142/kiss-1.jpg" border="0" alt="love,love,love,love"></a>

<a href="http://s316.photobucket.com/albums/mm332/FUQQLOVE13/?action=view&current=kissing-3.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i316.photobucket.com/albums/mm332/FUQQLOVE13/kissing-3.jpg" border="0" alt="kiss love"></a>

<a href="http://s287.photobucket.com/albums/ll122/bananacup34/?action=view&current=love-4-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i287.photobucket.com/albums/ll122/bananacup34/love-4-1.jpg" border="0" alt="kiss"></a>

<a href="http://s281.photobucket.com/albums/kk207/Dance_FREEEAAAK_Yo/?action=view&current=kiss-1.png" target="_blank"><img src="http://i281.photobucket.com/albums/kk207/Dance_FREEEAAAK_Yo/kiss-1.png" border="0" alt="So this is LOVE"></a>

<a href="http://s226.photobucket.com/albums/dd17/sash741/?action=view&current=summer_love.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd17/sash741/summer_love.jpg" border="0" alt="summer kiss"></a>

http://i296.photobucket.com/albums/mm180/kayletspartay22/kiss-5.jpg

more to come! (:

Monday, 14 July 2008

Blackness is a factor in love.

So I have had absolutely no successful relationships out of the three I have had all my life (so far). The first one, a guy I was madly in love with all year asked me out but it didn't go well because I was too shy. The second was a dare. The third the guy who asked me wouldn't talk to me and dumped me for one of my best friends.

All the other guys I liked in elementary school said "ew" because I was a "nerd", so I stopped telling the guys I liked I liked them because it was a waste of my time anyway.

When I finally got the guts...the guy I told I liked him said he didn't like me because I was black. That crushed my hopes for the rest of my life, I am never liking men again.

Anyway, my friends always tell me I'm fun and energetic, and pretty and skinny. Everyone tells me I'm skinny (which I hate) I'm normal sized! But that's good because guys like skinniness right? Okay. My parents friends even tell me I'm skinny and pretty. Black guys even check me out sometimes.

But for some reason, the guy in my grade don't like me. They like my friends, they date my friends, they make-out with my friends...but not me. Do black girls not appeal to white guys? Or were all those people lying and I'm actually ugly as shit? Am I really just annoying and not really fun? I highly doubt ALL of those people were lying. So what's the problem?

My friend Rachel really is a guy magnet. Every guy wants to date her and she doesn't mind! She even likes to tell people! She'll make-out with them, she even considered sending naked pictures on her phone. She's literally dated half the guys in our grade, and isn't ashamed either. She's a slut. Everyone knows. She flirts with EVERYONE, and gets mad when girls get mad at her for flirting with their boyfriend or crush, or when her boyfriend gets mad at her for flirting too much. She gets over-protective when you talk to her ex-boyfriends, and can't not have a boyfriend for longer than 2 weeks. Yes. That's my friend Rachel.

But what do guys see in that? I mean, she's pretty and fun, but who wants to date a slut? That goes for Megan and Amanda too. Kandace has guys floating all around her all the time. What do they have that I don't? The skinniness? (which I have) The popularity? (which I semi-have) The looks (which I have says my friends).

I highly believe it's mostly because I'm black. A semi-popular black girl and a white guy wouldn't look good together, so they would never date me. "I'm sure someone likes you!" "OMG don't say that, your so pretty!" "Just tell them, someone will say yes eventually." Bullshit. Dear friends, your liars.

I'm just tired of this. I'm not trying anymore. I hate guys, their stupid. I like them as friends and that's it. I'm done with them.
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